the haunting august 1998

Why on the night before graduation? If it would have happened during the year, I probably would have eventually told someone and he would have been held accountable. There might have been some sort of justice. He certainly would not have been able to go on the next two years being hailed as a great guy. I actually have him as one of my friends on facebook. I guess my curiosity got the best of me and I wanted to see what had happened in his life since. And there he was. With a big goofy smile on his face. Oh, he has a great life. Cute kid, good wife, he's happy. And it makes my stomach turn a little.

go away
leave me alone
i don't want you here
i want you gone
go back to your place
back where you belong
hidden in the memories
of the recesses of my mind
i don't want to see you smile
i want you to know
know and understand
understand what you did to me
that one night
in one night you scarred my soul
you stole a piece of me
you
you did that
i will not blame myself
i did not give you permission
do i tell you?
do i remind you of what you did?
or do i let you smile
never realizing
going on with you perfect little life
never looking back
no i will not tell you
i will put you back in your place
never to consider you again
you are gone
you are dead
that night never really happened
you have not changed me
i will not give you that power
you and all those like you
never again
you will not see my pain
you will not see the tears in my eyes
i will not give you the privilege
i will not let you apologize
you don't get the choice to make things right
no more
so i say goodbye
goodbye to you
goodbye to the haunting
goodbye to the girl i once was
goodbye
you will never see me again