pissed off

i know that it is not very christian, but i am really back to where i was 3 years ago and wishing he would just disappear/die. the man has not seen his kids for three months besides one 45 minute visit at my house and now, because he wants to prove he's ready for marriage, he wants to take them for a WEEK 13 hours away! I would rather sit in jail for contempt of court than let him take my kids there. that family is completely immoral. that is the family that sweeps sexual abuse under the rug and says "well, boys will be boys". that is the family that thinks nothing of letting a five year old watch a sex scene on tv. that is a family of alcoholics that can't hold a job and is too busy getting drunk to watch their own kids. no, no, no, no!!! i will not let him do this. he can go to hell (he's on his way there anyway). i'm sorry, but right now i hate that man. i honestly want the man to die. i do. yes, it would be hard on the kids to go through the funeral, but overall, they would be less one more evil in the world. UGH! i need to punch something. or bake. yep. i'm baking