Where to begin? The internet gods have raged against me this past week and I have not been able to get online for basically 3 days. I actually picked up one of my old journals and started writing in it since I couldn't blog. This week has been so stressful in so many different ways. I have spent two weeks working on a project for my new job and right before it was completed everything fell apart. So now I basically have to start all over. My boss teases me about always having a smile on my face but on Wedsday, I was certainly not smiling. I actually took a lunch break that day, not to eat but to walk and clear my head. I was pretty pissed. The worst thing is that I feel like I let my boss down. He understands that there was nothing I could have done to prevent it, but still. Wedsnesday was supposed to be this great exciting day when everything was completed and instead everything blew up. It seriously sucked. My boss continued to try and encourage me, but I could see he was disappointed. Beyond the crap at work, I've been dealing with stupid things all around me. Things at the house, namely the lack of internet service, the ex is starting up again with his crap, trying to prepare for a garage sale that I don't really want to do, and my son starting a new daycare and my daughter's daycare pissing me off a bit. Just an all around stressful week. Oh well. It's is finally Friday and I am now officially counting down to our vacation to NC. I cannot wait. Although, I am keenly aware of missing my weekend in Amish country last fall. I look forward to that every year. It is a time for me to recharge and refocus. I really miss that. I simply could not afford to go. I always go to the same little bed and breakfast. It's run by a Minnonite couple and there are now phones in the rooms and no TVs. It's in a beautiful setting and it's a place that I feel safe being there on my own. Yeah, I really miss it. I really want to get back there this year. The first year I went down there, I did not want to leave. Even though I live out in the country now, there is still something about the silence down there. You rarely hear a car, just the clip-clop of the horse and buggy. The air is clean and the food is great. It's just this little corner of the earth that still seems untouched by the modern world. I love it. I always envy the Amish and Minnonite families down there. They work so hard, but there is a joy and peace that I have to fight to maintain up here. Wow, this blog is getting longer and longer. That's a sign that I've gone through withdrawal. Well, I suppose I should actually get some work done.