I don't understand. Why now, why her, why this way? I still feel so raw from the last loss that has already shattered our world. I don't want to hear any more bad news. I'm tired of it all. And this is the day that I work with the attorney and deal with death and divorce. I really want to go to my other job. Work with my other boss. Be encouraged. He would find a way for me to laugh. But no, it's Friday and and that means the attorney job. That means that I paste a smile on my face and pretend that all is well. That my stomach is not turning as I work through files of people simply disposing of their spouses or fighting with their siblings over who gets what from their parents' estate. I'm just not up for it. I'm ready for Saturday. I'm ready for Him to come back.