Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Proverbs 31? Really?

I have noticed the last few days that I am getting up before my alarm goes off in the morning. I wake up feeling as though I have had enough sleep and I'm ready to start my day. At first I tried to explain it away by the fact that since the sun was rising earlier, the light through my skylight was waking me. That didn't hold once I realized that I was getting up before the sun was up and any light was shining in my bedroom. This morning I was up an hour before my alarm. I got up started doing some baking for some friends and some light housework. As I was at my sink washing dishes I looked out my window to see the sun starting to rise. A verse popped into my mind. "She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household and plan the day's work for her servant girls." Proverbs 31:15. One of the things that always got me about the infamous Proverbs 31 woman is the fact that she is up before dawn and works into the night. I never got how on earth the woman could do and still be all joyful and such. This morning it hit me: she was at peace. A woman at peace can fall into her bed at night exhausted from a days work and sleep deeply, with no worries waking her or disturbing her sleep. Thus, she can awaken in the morning rested and refreshed. My sleeping patterns changed after I came to the conclusion that I am going to remain single. Is this simply my soul coming to peace with what God has intended for me? Am I finally resting in His hand enough that my mind can actually rest at night? It is a great feeling to start the day before anyone else is up and to be able to accomplish so much before the waking of the kids. Is this contentment? If it is, how long will it last? I treasure this feeling and I hope that it will become a normal part of my life. Just another blessing along the broken road I travel. "Father, take my hand and lead me on."

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