First day of school & scared out of my mind

Today is the day that we start homeschooling. Exciting? Yes. Terrifying? Absolutely! This is too important to mess up. It's not that I think I am an idiot and am not able to teach a first and fifth grader, but I am more concerned that things go smoothly. I want this to strengthen, not weaken my relationship with my children. I want them to excel in all areas, not just academically. My husband's alarm goes off every morning at 3:10am (gotta go milk those cows!), but usually I sleep right through it until my alarm goes off at 4:10am. Not today. Not only did I wake up, but as I lay there trying to get back to sleep, a pit started growing in my stomach. Larger and larger until I thought it might consume me. I got up to see my husband. He was still doing his quiet time so I started putting dishes away. As I stood there in the kitchen, the tears began to roll despite my insistence that they not. Stupid, stubborn tears! I finished my job and wiped my eyes all the while trying to keep my fears from my husband, but also wishing that I could collapse in his arms. He asked me if I was staying up and I simply nodded yes (it's not completely uncommon that I get up that early). He asked me what was wrong and I shook my head and said, "I'm fine". I hugged and kissed and sent him out the door. That pit suddenly seemed to overtake me and I found myself following after him in stocking feet. I met up with him in the driveway and finally confided in him all my fears. He reassured me and tried to encourage me. Then he gave me the greatest gift. While wrapped in his embraced, he prayed for me. Standing there in the driveway, he lifted me up to our Heavenly Father. I finally released him and he went on his way (now running late). I am still so very fearful, but I am also so thankful that I have a husband that will support me. I truly am praying that God direct me and somehow that He make this all work for my children's best and His glory. Never before have I felt more like a simple, humble servant that for some reason God has chosen. I don't know if anyone will read this, but if you do, even a year from now, say a prayer that God continue to direct and lead me as I embark on a journey of greatest importance and hopefully of greatest joy.